No one saw

I don’t know how, but I remember looking down and my feet just buckled and I fell. It was as if one foot tripped over the other?

I caught myself with my left arm. All my food fell out of my lunch bag into the dirty gravel. 

I got up as quickly as I could so that no one would see. I looked around and I didn’t see anyone, not even a car drove by. 

Usually there’s always people around, or a car… just someone. This time, no one. No one saw me fall.

I was relieved no one saw me fall, because I felt embarrassed. I made sure I was dirty… or bleeding. I looked at my palm and it was red. My arm felt sore and I started to feel sorry for myself. I didn’t know if I should report it or not. I didn’t even click on yet. I don’t want people to feel sorry for me or think I’m complaining. I don’t like that. 

I went into the office and kind of wanted to cry. I didn’t have to be at work today; it’s actually my day off, but I picked up the extra shift.

I miss my kids… I fell today, and no one saw. 



I got my freakin ass up today at 7 on a weekend off work day to lose these damn pounds and inches!
Motivated and pissed at the same time! πŸ˜‘πŸ˜«πŸ˜‘


Dear Kuya,

I don’t know is something you often say… and no matter how much I don’t want to hear you say it, I myself do understand what you mean when I hear you say, “I don’t know.”

Because I don’t know who you want to be or what you want to be, but I do know who I hope you can be.

I hope you become the kind of man that shows respect, that shows love, that shows kindness, and shows a compassionate heart for others. I hope for a man who knows how to care For themselves without the dependence of others. I hope you can be the person who people can trust and share their innermost feelings without wasting your time.

I hope you will be better than your dad and I.

This is what I hope for. My hope that you would become all these things is just a hope, but you always have a choice. 

So when you say I don’t know, my solution is to tell you what to do. Is that fair? 

I don’t know.

So my son, I love you. I love you unconditionally. Whether you make the right choice or not for your future, I will be there. I will make my own sacrifices, and one day, you will make your own. Whether it is what we want or not, it is what’s best. 

My son, I will always be proud of you.