Can’t

“You can’t always get what you want, Michelle.”

I hear all the time. I stop to think what I want and this is something I hear whispering in the back of my mind.

What do I want?

– for my children to be happy and succeed in life

– to be able to provide, give, and share without hesitation.

– to escape when every I want to

– to sit in church with someone next to me. I sit alone, and I feel alone.

Then, I’m reminded this.

That I don’t always get what I want. Because it’s not about me. It’s about them. It’s about what I can give that’s free – time, love, prayer, truth, happiness, memories. Those I can give. It’s priceless.

I’m surrounded by lots of family, friends, and a world that I barely tapped into. A world that Good created. I cant make the time to escape to those places.

And when I’m in church… I am not alone. He is with me. He’s sitting next to me. So I will enjoy this moment and be with Him.

Luck

Was chilling on the stairs having my coffee. My mom was talking to me about the time and how she couldn’t see it. I saw look at her phone but it was sooo close to her face… I giggled… she heard.

“Why you laughing?” She asked.

“Want me to make your font bigger?” I giggled.

“You know, you’re always laughing at me.”

“It’s just you and me here, mom. No one else. It’s okay to laugh.” I said.

“You know, my eyes are bad already. You’re lucky if reach my age.” She said.

I choked. I wanted to say something ‘wise’ like, “Yes, I would be lucky.”

Instead I just laughed, but even after she said that I went upstairs and cried.

I am lucky… blessed to be alive even right now. Especially to share this moment. Silly moments.

I’m going to be forty soon! Someone once told me that I’d be lucky to reach 40. They told me that I have to take good care of myself. If not, then there’s a chance I would need a transplant.

I AM SO TIRED! So so tired. This year has been hard – emotionally, spiritually, and financially.

“Stay STRONG, you can get through this,” I say to myself.

Count your blessings; luck has nothing to do with it… cause I’m not a leprechaun 🍀 hehehehe!

Nineteen

On November 3rd my beautiful daughter turned 15! Wow! She wanted to celebrate her birthday going out for lunch with friends at Zion market and enjoying Korean food. Then later in the evening, we went to watch Tauren Wells. Hubby went to the VIP meet rather than I. I was so worn out and needed to rest. They looked like they had a wonderful moment together. The evening ended with more memories to share.

My handsome son just turned nineteen on November 8… I hope he has a wonderful day. He just wanted to relax and do NOTHING. Best birthday wish ever, because that’s what I had wanted one year. For his birthday dinner, we went to El Indio and both Twano houses went. Even uncle Arthur was able to make it. Everyone enjoyed the dinner. Then he went to watch a show at the National Comedy Theater. I was told that he even got to go on stage. He must of had such a blast! ♥️ totally love this guy.

While we were having dinner, big girl was all also enjoying the day at homecoming. Her Kuya gave her permission to go. Very sweet of him especially when I tried to pull the guilt trip on her.

Turning 19 is definitely a milestone for big boy. When u turned 19, my mom threw me a birthday party and my friends were all invited. The only one who was not there was my boyfriend at the time. I really missed him, but there was someone else at my party that was there. And I had decided to give him a chance.

On my 19th Birthday, was the day I had let go of my boyfriend and we both agreed to see other people. My heart both broke and put back together on the same day. Is that even possible?

Yes it is. 19 was just the beginning.

Same year, about three months later, I got married.

Today, I realized that it wasn’t because I was young and in love is the reason why I got married young.

Today I realized it is because I grew up to fast. Fast enough that I was ready to be on my own… because in has always felt that I was in my own. I was an individual who walked on her own. I was ready to start my own life and have my own family. I found someone special and this year got to celebrate both my kiddos.

I hope and pray that my nineteen year old doesn’t feel lonely. I hope that he feels the love and the joy he brings and receives from us and from all his family and friends. I hope and pray that big girl feels our presence in her love and trust that she is a beautiful person both in and out.

These kids are so amazing! The bring joy to our hearts and we are excited to see and be a part of many more years to come.

Mwa! Momma loves you!

“What really defines someone is what they won’t do.” -Legacies

Next Milestone…

One of the things Hubby and I have always thought about doing was actually buy our son a car. We didn’t know what kind, but I knew that was one our goals. I knew it wasn’t going to be new… so we needed to pray and put a lot of thought on what type of used car we were going to get:

– clean

– functional and well taken care if

– stylish

– Safe

– not too old

– affordable

My budget was $2000, but I couldn’t find a car that we liked at that range. And finally, we came across a class that I never thought of. It was always the traditional Toyota that we got, Honda next, and then an Acura or a Mitsubishi. Yeps… Asian cars I guess you can say. Instead, we surprised our son with something completely different.

A Mini Cooper! Yaaass! There were a few cosmetics that could have warned me to walk away, but Salvador (the third owner of the vehicle) actually took very good care of the car and even upgraded the lighting and the car stereo, which includes blue tooth for safe driving. All the airbags were updated and some of the materials were replaced. The only thing he probably didn’t get to update was the smog – it passed though! 🙂

My mom presented the car to big boy as soon as he got home. She was so excited for him too – it looked she was nervous just trying to talk to him. It was so cute… all day until the next day, we kept asking him if he liked the car. We even went for a stroll that evening and the drive was so cool.

Here are a few facts about the car:

– 2006 – looks only two years old said Mei (that’s how nice it looked)

– big boy thinks it’s worth $20k!! REALLY?! Alright!

– it’s part of the BMW family

– front wheel drive

– can be used for racing

– the exhaust is made of metal material

– the windows have no framing

– the body can be upgraded and misplaced with a kit

– the seats are leather

– has cruise control

… more!

I only got to drive it once just to bring it home. Hubby got the car detailed and smelling good and clean!

So happy for us to be able to get him a car. The deal: he’s responsible for the gas! Which means he can’t be going to too many places if he wants to budget well. Hopefully this gift will inspire him to understand that his achievements in life are worth the struggle and time as long as you put the effort into it. We all have goals – I hope he’s able to put his together and strive to be persistent in reaching it.

We love you son and we are very proud of you no matter what. You are always in our prayers and we hope that you know we always want the best for you. We will always walk by your side.

Mwa!

-mommy and daddy

Fago De Chao

Made a silly joke with the kiddos and told them I want to be a bathroom critic. LOL!

I’ve done a few before this one, but here’s for a popular Brazilian Restaurant in San Diego

Points are earned by a rating of 1-5 for the following:

Entry: 3 – kind of hidden not really grand or welcoming

Cleanliness: 4

Convenience: 5 – extra toilet paper and towels were available, so your not like stuck and end up using the seat cover.

Design: 4 – simple but not Awe-mazing! The space around the toilet was normal, and the privacy were like any other stalls…

The color contrast was pleasant and the music that played was made the “moment” chill. I love the huge mirror and the door design.

Overall average: 4 🌟