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I feel worthless as if everything I’ve ever tried to accomplish has fallen through the cracks. I’ve lost time and money but mostly time. Time I can’t get back and I just want to scream and cry and just give up.

I don’t even know what to call the title on this frustration I’m putting out.

I deny the fact that I am upset by it telling anyone. I walk around as if everything is okay and cover it up with, “I’m just tired.” So that I can just go back to the bathroom, my sanctuary, go into the shower and cry. It’s the only place where I can hide my tears without even Noticing that I’ve dropped a bucketful of it.