First of Four

Got to fix his hair and some touch ups! 🙂 didn’t know I’d be doing this for my boy. Long hair don’t care moment… he wears it well don’t you think?

So handsome…

Meet his adorable date, Miss. Tori Blas. (I hope I spelled her name correctly)

The aftermath I now have to clean up. Deciding whether to keep the new flat iron or not. Winks!

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Silence

You never apologize when you know you’re wrong. It hurts my feelings and it’s selfish of you to be that way. Pride is not good, it hurts, and it makes me sad longer even if happiness happens more often, the sadness lingers and wastes my time.

Saying sorry is not hard, so why not just say it even if you may think you’re right? If anything, it helps with the relationship, but if you allow pride to continue on, I should have left a long time ago.

Don’t get defensive when I say You. You’re the only person I’m talking to so there’s no else. And because I value our relationship, my silence is what I’ve learned to do rather than say what’s on my mind. Because words that’s I say, I can’t take back, otherwise, I can say things that I do mean, so I’d rather not say anything at all. That’s how important you are to me.

PB

I wasn’t quite hungry today. I just ate left overs. For dinner, I figured I’d just eat pb&j. I asked the kids already if they ate. When they found out I was going to make pb&j, they wanted some too.

There was only two breads left. I looked at my little ones and they were so excited to make a sandwhich with me. I helped them make theirs and then I went back upstairs with my string cheese Baybel. I was about to message Hubby to buy some bread cause I know the cheese won’t fill me up and I don’t want to eat rice.

Next thing you know, Elijah comes upstairs and shakes his other half of the bread. I think either he realized or sister told him that was supposed to be my dinner – and that cheese is what I ended up eating. I wasn’t sad, but this makes me so proud of him to give him. I told him he doesn’t have to do that. I made sure I asked if he’s full. He said he wanted to. Thank you, Elijah! Mwa!

Reminder

Remind me again why…

– I work so hard

– why I’m going back to school

– worry

– eat well

– exercise

– care

I can do everything…

168 hours in a week

6hrs/ day sleep if any… (average 5hrs) = 42 hours

72 hour work week

13 hours for school

Divide the rest of my time by 8 (8 people in my household – 4 kids, husband, Mom and Dad)… this doesn’t include the dogs, and other family and friends… 5hrs each to my household a week. That’s one hour and 1mins with each member in my household.

I manage my time very well… I look at every minute and every hour of my day and I give them to someone who wants it and if you want my time, I’ll give it, because God blesses me with more time to live… so if you need me, just let me know, but don’t make me feel bad when I don’t have it at that moment. It’s not fair – I ask and I ask and I ask, and the answer is always no, so when you finally ask, and I say “No,” then don’t ask ‘why.’ But do keep in mind that when we I say ‘no.’ It breaks my heart, because I want to be there. I want to help and I want to be supportive.

Don’t push me away, because everything I do- my work, my schooling, my kids, the little things I clean when you’re not looking (like dusting), I do them for you. I don’t ask for a lot… but I do ask for respect of the time. I have to work, clean, take care of the kids during school days and much more that I just don’t have time to actually do the things I really want to do – like draw, take a 🛀 bath, do my nails, learn and instrument, things I LIKE TO DO. It’s a sacrifice I tell people. Does it make me happy? Yes, because it’s for my family. But you know what? If it doesn’t make you happy, then why do I even try?

Do my efforts make anyone happy? Isn’t even enough? Do you not see my time above and how I manage them?

Apparently not… I don’t know if I’m the selfish one or you…

Today

Today is a very special, yet also a very sad day in my family.

Today is Ting’s birthday. He turns 33 years old. 🙂 Stephanie and the kids surprised him at roller skate land. I didn’t get to go because I had work, but I heard they had a great time.

Today my brother cried. He was sad. He sent a text in the afternoon asking for prayers for Corey, Bonnie’s brother. Unfortunately, Corey didn’t make it.

“Corey was pronounced dead at 2210 central time.” He said.

I asked Kuya if he can talk. He called me and I listened. I tried not to talk a lot. My brother cried. I wanted to cry, but I didn’t. I told him it was okay to cry – it’s what makes us human. I told him when Bonnie comes home, just hold her… you don’t have to say a word, but if you want to cry, just cry. He’s worried about what to say to the kids. He asked me about pergatory. He said Gavin knows what it is, and Gavin is going to get mad because his uncle isn’t going to heaven. I told my Kuya, that I know that when someone believes in Jesus, he will go to heaven because he believes. Corey believes.

Today Nai Nai’s Mom, Ting’s grandma, also past away. I sent her a greeting to send her my thoughts and prayers.

Today I pray for my family. Lord, please hear our prayers. I lift up to you the people I love. Hear their hearts and heal the brokenness inside them. Bless others with protection and healing and may they have many more years to come.

Just scan me…

Take the day off today per the request of my eldest daughter. She practically begged for me not to go to work today. All morning I kept asking the children what did they want to do? They had no answer. Well, I told them if you guys don’t want to go out and I am just going to go eat. Well, the girl said let’s go to the mall. So to the mall we went. But the police, they stayed home.

So we go to the stores and we shop and we eat me look around and enjoy all the Christmas decorations that were put out right before Thanksgiving. It’s freezing how cheerful people get when it comes to the holiday season. Anyways, Myella was so overly excited. We went to a store called H&M and she saw the sweater that she really really really liked. She wanted to try it on. So she did. Then her sister told her to take it off. The little one said, “No, just scan me.”

Hehehe! Silly things my kids say.

She really liked the sweater!